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Challenges







When challenges keeps on attacking
you...

When everything is blurry and all you
can see darkness...

What would you do?
What would you feel?

If you feel like you're world is
collapsing...

If the wall seems too high for you to
climb...

Is it time to give up...
Or would you still hold on?





If you ask me...
It's a lot easier to GIVE UP...
But there's more worth in HOLDING ON...


   OH YEAH!!! I was so nervous and irritated at the same time...AHH!!! I can't get it out of my head and everytime I think about it it just makes even more frustrated and it felt like there were butterflies in my poor tummy...~_~ Here's the story...

   So I was sitting beside Betty during break. I was talking to Shiela, Betty, Natalie, and Dana like I always did. Then Ryan came and I started talking to him (more like teasing him...hehe...) and then suddenly I saw Russell behind him. He suddenly interrupted my conversation with Betty and Ryan. He said a bunch of stuff that I can't really understand cause I wasn't focusing on the words that he said cause someone was behind him (Jayden !_!). Then someone was behind him. I don't know if it was Eugine or somebody else but that dude was pushing him towards me. I really don't know what was going on so I started to panic. I mean not panic panic but more inside my head. I couldn't look him in the eye and I made fake conversations with Betty and Shiela with a little "help me" signal on my face. Then after a few seconds the bell rang and it's time for the boys' P.E. and the girls' Language Arts class so they quickly disappeared. After that I was completely staring at Natalie while saying "What just happened?" When I sat on my desk at Ms. Ray's class my heart was beating so loudly the whole time and I felt like I wanna puke because of the different feeling in my stomach. I wasn't really feeling well at that time and I was speechless...

   AHH!!! I guess that's it. I guess Russell told him about it and now I'm doomed. Oh goodbye! I guess that's it. I can no longer talk to him or even watch him from afar which what I was doing for quite some time now. Just when I was making those baby step on getting to know him it was then punched straight to the ground. *sigh* Just when I was preparing the day for the perfect time but it's too late now...Oh Yeah! too late...

  I wonder what will happen tommorow??? +_+

WELCOME 2008!

   
Another year has passed and I think almost every events that took place in my life are still fresh in my memories. Those events were wonderful, amazing, once-in-a-lifetime, bitter, painful, but then again inspiring. I can say that 2007 was a very shocking and draining fro me. I've experienced so much and not all are happiness and not all are sadness. It's mixed of all the emotions in this world. I've experienced great defeat and great battles and I'm so amazed that I'm still standing and I'm still fighting. Let me describe the events that took place in the year 2007 in my life through symbols...

Cloud  - The beginning of the year was very pleasnt. After spending the last New Year without my mom, I then busied myself with the works in my ministries. I can really say that the beginning of the year was very significant and was a really amazing start. It's like when you are running in a race. I can say that it was a good start. I was so involve with my ministries and I can really feel that I was home. I experienced lot of great things like I got to meet and watch the ITM while they visited. Even though it was only for a week I can really say that it was one of the high-lights of my year. I learned so many things from them. I was also part of the demo team and it made a huge mark in my life. I could never forget the tiring trainings and the demos that I participated in. It was truely amazing! I can't even describe what I felt during those times. It was a mixture of hard work and a good outcome. 

Weed -
Even though the start of the year was very welcoming of course there's always bumps on the road. Although I'm quite doing well at church I had trouble at school. I was in frist-year at that time and I started feeling things that I never felt before. I started hating school. I seldom go to school. I make excuses not to go to school which I have never done before. I remember during my elementary days that I was always excited about going to school everyday but then at that time I was really giving up. I really hate the school I was in. At first I was okay with it but then suddenly I just snapped. I was foecing myself to go to school everyday which was a really big deal for me. I almost gave up at that time but then I started pulling myself together and just went for it and fight 'till the end. In the end I was happy that I didn't gave up.

Pen - Later on i started being involve in writing, especially fanfictions. I started being interested in writing stories through fanfictions. I bought a book about different exercises and tips on writing a fiction story. Those were really great because I had things to do that helps me improve on my studies and it was really great being involve in writing although we don't have book club or creative writing in our school. Anyway, I then got help from my Mommy Abby and she introduced me to a site where I can post my fanfics andget reviews or comments about it (www.fos-ff.net). Although my first fanfic wasn't really that amazing but it was still the first step to becoming a good writer.

Ice - Although the beginning of the year was rather running smoothly well it surely didn't last long enough. I started facing the problem about going to US to live with my mom. I've never really thought about it for quite awhile because of my involvement in church when I started realizing it it was really painful for me. Then not just that I discovered lots of stuffs too. I learned that my dad was hesitating on letting us go. Then I learned that my parents got divorced which the reason I later on found out. All the things that happened were so shocking and it hurt me a lot. I was so brocken and wounded and I describe my state as "emotional wreck". I'm not kidding! It torn me up in million peices.

Tear - I can say that this symbol is rather literally. I mean I literally cried a lot. When I first arrived at US (which to your information the country that I somewhat dislike) i was really crying a lot. I couldn't stop thinking about the shardds that was pierced deeply in my heart. It was devastating. It was like you got broke and then you got kicked out of your house and you had no place to go. Up until now I still can't believe that I'm still standing but I owe it all to HIM. If you only saw me at those moments. Everyday when I wake up I always have to put a mask pretending that I'm alright and later at the end of the day when it's time to remove it i just couldn't heko but cry. Every night before going to bed I'd just tear up and cry as much as I can hoping that it'll help ease the pain.

Flower - So I was saying I was really devastated but then through songs and encouragements and HIS WORD I was able to make it through the entire year. I started standing up again. Although I still cry once in awhile (who can blame me. I really miss MP and I wake up in the morning seing MNH) but it's not like before. I think after all that had happened I can't lie that I'm still pretty broken by it but I think I can make it through this year too. Like what Coach Ed said, "Hang on one more day." Like a flower after all the long waiting I think Im starting to bloom. After all the storms in my life I'm starting to become more and more stronger and thus being prepared for another storm that's coming ahead. I'll bloom into a pretty flower someday if I can learne to folloe, obey, and hold firmly.

  I hope that this coming year would also be filled and excitement although to be honest I hope it'll be less painful but then again the more pain the stronger I'll get. Once again, hello 2008!

HELLO WINTER BREAK!!!

Winter Break finally started and I can feel the Christmas spirit. OH YEAH!!! Even though I wouldn't be alble to see my friends and you-know-who for about two weeks I still kinda like it. Of course it's break. who wouldn't want a short break from all the demands of school. another good thing is that my mom got her laptop and now she moved her old computer to our room. I can finally catch up to my fanfics. Of course I need to finish some schoolworks (yeah, even at winter break I still have some school work) before I start filling the computer with fanfic wonderland. 

I need to memorize the preamble of the Declaration of Independence and I have to make some progress and reports for my science project. These are all due once we get back from break so I need to get to work the day after tomorrow. *sigh*

Anyway before all that it's my relaxation time so I should not think of all those stuffs until after tomorrow. OH YEAH! I also wish that fos-ff would finish their maintenance so I could check and edit some of my fanfics. I really need to update them.

all about today...

  There's nothing special in this entry. I just decided that I'm gonna fill my blog with things including what happened everyday. Well, not really everyday but I will try.

  So let's see; what happened today??? Well, I really think that our colony in Ms. Rays class is doing quite well. At first I thought that were really miserable and all that but I was wrong. Things turned out really good. We still get misfortunes sometimes but it doesn't affect our colony that much. Yay! That's why I'm so happy. Oh and you know what, Jaden's colony got such a terrible card. From the first round until the seventh round they were doing really great. I mean, he always gets the best cards but then awhile ago something really terrible happened. They got a card where 15 of their men died then 8 women and also children and they loss hundred something units of food and also guns. What a pity. I hope our colony won't get that card cause if wed do WAH!!! we'll be dead!!! and say hello to F!!! Sucks huh???

Anyway, I'm still sick. I was coughing really badly in both Ms. Tomas class and Ms. Rays. AHH!!! I wish I'll get better tomorrow. I wanna eat my chocolates, and candies, and ice cream, and drink cold drinks!!! WAHH!!!
 
Ok...I think that's it for now. I hope I'll be able to post another entry tomorrow. Oh wait! I won't ! I have to work on my science project. I have to do all those research and such!

lovely complex...

~ I'm finish watching this new anime that I started a couple of days ago...

I found this anime because of Hey! Say! 7. I found out that two of their songs were used in this anime so I tried to check it out and it wasn't bad at all!



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So let me tell you a little bit about it. So the story is about a girl with a height of 172 cm (which is above average an average height of a Japanese girl) and a boy with a height of 156 cm (which is way below an average height of a Japanese boy at his age). During summer school a very tall guy shows up and Risa Koizumi (the girl) falls in love with him and Atsushi also has a crush on Risa's friend. Then they decided to put their differences behind and help each other get they're love interests but as they get to know each other Risa begins to have feelings for Otani which leads to many trials and conflicts.

That's as far as I'll tell you. Try to check it out if you are you seem to like the plot. Anyway, I better get going now but in my next post I'll discuss my new bishounen, Yamada Ryosuke, and the group he belongs to, Hey! Say! 7...

it's still broken...

 

      ~~ I can't continue with my fics cause my stupid computer is still broken...

Ahh!!! I hate this!!! I can't work on my fanfics because my computer is still broken and I can't so it on my mom's computer cause I can't hog it all to myself. Whenever I write my fanfics I put my personal bubble space on and I need concentration but I can't do that. And i think I could only write peacefully at my room. Gahh!!! this stinks. 

It's been a long time since I last updated my fanfic. I bet my only reader is upset. Anyway I'll work on it soon on a piece of paper then just transfer it once the computer if fixed. Yay!!! But I guesse it'll take a long time...anyway at least there's an outcome.

So this is also related with my future post about my current bishounens...yeah!!! I wanted to make that entry and post it so badly but I can't find a way t fit it on my schedule. And maybe my schedule would be a lot more hectic because I'm also part of the Haunted House thingy!!! Yeah, sounds fun ne? I don't even know why I joined cause I'm really not into horror things, actually I hate them, but I guess this would be fun so what the heck!!!

*sigh* So I guess I better start working with my homeworks and fixing stuffs. i don't even know where to begin. Then after that I've got lots of chores. Yeah, chores!!! And I need to fix my room. Whenever it's weekdays my room always looks like a trashcan and every Saturday I have to fix it. 

All these things are so frusttrating. I don't even have time for my poor anime shows and manga. Anyway, I know that as soon as I get the hang of it things would go well (I hope)....

So that's it for now people!!! ^_^

stuck at school works...

     ~~ It's been awhile since I posted my last blog entry...

Sorry about that; it's just that I'm so stuck at school works. Everyday we tons of homeworks and I also need to catch up for my grades that's why I need to do extra credits. Ahhh!!! it's so frustrating and exhausting. I'm really not used at having homeworks up until weekends and since I just moved I'm kinda having slight problems about addapting. 

Anyway, I'll tell you guys somethings about my new school. Well let's see...it's the first school that I didn't have difficult time having friends. All of my classmates were so friendly and I didn't expect to have companies at such an early start. At first I was so nervous about it but I realized that there was nothing to worry about. 

Next, the school...well it's like every school I've been to but I think this school really focuses at the student's studies and also the student's time for fun. The teachers were nice too although we do only have two teachers for our grade level. One teacher always gives us so much homework but still somehow I could finish them but it'll take me like hours to do so.

All in all, a very nice school. It's just pretty bad that I have to move to another school next year cause that school doesn't have high school. They're only up to middle school. i hope I'll be attending the same school with my current classmates so somehow I wouldn't have hard time fitting in.

*sigh* I want to tell more but I need to prepare to go to bed and fix my things. I'll post my current addictions entry soon. (If I get the time to do it)...I hope I'll get to post more often than this. 

Alright time to go!!! ^_^

Saiunkoku Monogatari Review...


~~ I just finished watching this anime and I'm also done with my Death Note fanfiction so here's my review...

It's been weeks since I finished this anime but I got stuck with my fanfiction (cause I'm too lazy to finish it) so I didn't post this one earlier. Anyways, here's my review and a little hint about it for those who doesn't know this anime.

Saiunkoku Monogatari, also called as Tales of Saiunkoku, aired in Japan between April 8, 2006 and February 24, 2007 with a total of 39 episodes. For me, I still consider this as a new anime. In manga it currently consists of 12 volumes but I haven't read the manga yet so I don't know any other details about it.



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When I first saw this one it kinda reminded me of Fushigi Yuugi although when you look at its plot you would see a total difference except for the animation.

The story begins with Kou Shurei, although she belongs in a powerful family they were still poor so once she was offered to work at the palace with a payment of 500 gold coins she gladly accepted it without even bothering to ask any details about the job. Well when she arrived at the palace that was the only moment she gain knowledge about her duty. She was assigned as the Emperor's consort and was to help him and change him to become a true Emperor. Sounds easy well here's the catch this Emperor, since his reign, had never attended any meetings and was rumored to like men more than women.



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This is just an itroduction about the anime but I kinda missed some parts so that I wouldn't spoil much to those that hasn't seen this one yet.

I just have to warn you though that the story doesn't really focuses on the relationship between Shurei and Ryuki, the Emperor, but more to Shurei's dream to pass the imperial examinations and be a government official. There are lots of twists in this anime.

I really like this one and my favorite bishie is...*drum roll* RYUKI!!! ^_^ He's just so cute and very sweet although I also like Seiran but I have to admit that I like him more when he was a child...

I can't still share more about this anime cause I haven't saw the 2nd season yet but I promise I'll also give my reviews about the second season.

Anyway please wait for more posts. I still have lots of topics to post. I will also update you with my current addictions like JDoramas, anime, bishies, bishounen, and more. This is actually for my 'aniki', my 'mommy', Cadz and all my friends in the Philippines. This one way to keep in-touch with you guys so you'll know my current obsessions. Love you all!!! ^_^ Till my next post ^_^

I'm so sorry...

 
  ~~Gomen!!! I'm sorry that I can't post regularly it's just that I'm having an anime marathon (and I'm kinda lazy) so I couldn't post that often...+_+ Honto ni Gomen!!!

As you could see I didn't place much effort in making this post anyway I promise that as soon as I finish this current anime that I'm watching, Saiunkoko Monogatari, I'll surely post...including my reviews...ne??? And maybe because of the ending of summer vacation I might be a little slower in posting also...but I promise that I'll try my best to update you folks. Yare Yare...I need to post more articles in here and also reviews...

Anyway I better start watching again so I could finish sooner...Thank you so much to those that gladly reads my posts!!! I wub you!!! ^_^ It really makes me happy that you read and also reviewed...I wish that more people would read my posts so they could know me better and by that I'll have more friends!!! Yay!!! ^_^ Anyway time to finish that anime, only a few more episodes!!! JA NE ^_^